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Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Not Very Good

I went and weighed in at lunchtime yesterday, and it really wasn't any better than last week. Actually it was WORSE, I'm up another 1.5 lbs!!! That's a total of a 2.5lbs gain this month, and its only the 2nd week.

It seems that there's just food, food, and more food and I can't stop myself. I grabbed a 1/4 slice of banana loaf when I was in the office. There was a baby shower in my work area, had a piece of chocolate cake. I try to mentally rehearse turning these things down, and I can't do it. I said to myself last night, I'll only have cake if its vanilla (I love vanilla). It was chocolate, and I ate it anyhow. Sigh.

I am really not coping well right now, I'm tired (right now if I tired I'd put a round peg in a square hole), I'm so busy my head won't stop spinning, I'm unhappy, and the Super Bitch is in residence right now. As of lunchtime today Todd and I haven't spoken in 24 hours (did you know you can have a fight via text messaging... really you can). Literally, not a word. Yesterday was our 17th anniversary and there was just nothing to celebrate about the day.

I feel like everything is out of control and therefore I have no self control.

Long live Super Bitch.

36 comments:

Paula said...

Hugs

Jenny said...

((Dani)) This too shall pass, really it will. I too have the Super Bitch days - don't we all?

Did you know you can also have a fight about the way someone breathed at the end of a sentence - really you can! And it can easily last a whole 24 hours. Ask me how I know. Men suck sometimes.

Keep your chin up honey, it'll get better.

Daffycat said...

***hugs*** Times can get stressful and things just seem to go haywire in nothing flat. I once went two weeks without speaking to Rick after an argument! That was 21 years ago and I was pregnant with Jess.

Step away from the cake! Don't let food take control again...you've done so well, just remember that! You go girl!

Silverlotus said...

Dani, don't worry about the weight gain. The health problems and stress go a long way to making your weight do weird things. And, if you think about it, you have done an amazing job. You have lost so much and done so well. Very few people even come close to making the effort you have made.

As for the rest, well, I hope things improve soon. We are all entitled to our bad moods once in a while.

Heather said...

Dani,
Look at the side of the blog and see the incredible journey you have made. You have hit just a slight curve but lok as it an over journey
Step away from the cake and remember why you took the step in the first place
Hugs

Old Yankee Stitcher said...

Ok, no real advice here except, ok. Let it out, scream and shout, run around the block a few times, stomp your feet and basically let yourself go, eat cake, pie, ice cream, whatever. Then fall into bed and sleep for AT LEAST eight hours, by then well, it will be a new day with new opportunities to begin again. Maybe someone will realize he's lucky to have another day to apologize (I know HE must have been wrong). Right now give yourself permission to do anything. Hope the new day is better, CJ ok;-)

valerie said...

Aww, hang in there Dani! You're just going through a tough spot. Try to stay away from the end of year sweets and find ways to relax. I'm sure the stress and all the health stuff has thrown your metabolism out of whack!

Sorry about Todd...I've had plenty of fights via email and voice mail...never text! :)

Bronny said...

There are times in a diet that the only focus is weight loss/gain and not your total and overall health. Perhaps it's time to shift the focus from the pounds and ounces and look at your overall health. Don't beat yourself up over eating cake or a weight gain - your body is adjusting to an amazing job you have already done. If you can - why not focus on a super piece of fruit for your sugar boost.
As for the fight - don't let it drag on too long and an anniversary is only a date on a calendar - celebrate the honemoon instead!
Hugs and chin up!
(22yrs married and 60kg overweight!) Bronny

Julie said...

Sending loving positive thoughts your way that life soon becomes happier for you

mollycaff said...

After all you've been through in the last few weeks I'm not surprised you're feeling a bit low at the moment. Big hugs. I couldn't have an argument by text, it takes me so long to tap a message in I'd have forgotten what we were arguing about by the time I was ready to send it!

Chiloe said...

Stress as you know doesn't help for the weight loss ... Maybe you could drink water before going to an event with food. Maybe right now, you should just control what you eat, exercise (and change your routine) and breath . If you are too stressed out, it won't work.

I hope you'll feel better soon.

(((((((((hugs)))))))))

Joanie said...

Take a deep breath, go kiss you honey to release that bit of stress and just know that this is a speed bump in your weight loss journey.

Hugs to you!!!

claudia said...

(((((HUGS))))))

Crazee4books said...

Hi Dani,

I've read all the comments left
for you by your friends in the
blogging world and they've pretty
much said it all.

You've come a long way in your
weight loss journey, and you've
achieved so much. You work hard,
you put your all into everything
that you do, and you're worn out.

You're entitled to being Bitchy
and you need an outlet for your
frustration, disappointment and
depression. And a sympathetic
shoulder to lean or cry on.

I hope your weekend with Christin
will help a little towards making
you feel a bit better.

Hang in there! Hugs!

P.S. I'd have eaten the chocolate
cake too...and had seconds!!

Wanda said...

You are receiving good advise filled with love and concern. Here's my two cents....once again....throw the damned scale away!!!! It's ruling your life!! You've come so far...now let go and let LIFE!!!!! Yeah...I know very well you can fight via text. No matter how you fight..it sucks. Bitchy? You are allowed to be but now..it's time to get over it and go on with life. Cry? yep...that helps sometimes. Alot. Control? some things can't be controlled and the more one tries, the more frustrating it gets. Feel better soon. Get your priorities in line and remember YOU come first.

Sally said...

Sending lots of positive thoughts and hugs your way Dani. It's just a glitch and it will get better. As Heather said look at the side of your blog and see what you have lost. I think you're truly amazing to have kept it up so well and lose what you have. You have amazing will power so don't let this little glitch get to you. You've had a lot going on of late.

gio162 said...

I'm so sorry about the blues - hugs, and hoping for better news soon.

Katie said...

((Hugs))

Plateaus are the pits :( Just remember that every day is a new day and if the number of comments is any indication, you've got a tonne of us routing for you :)

Alice said...

So sorry about your bad patch Dani, it happens that way sometimes... when one thing goes wrong they all go wrong! You have been eating when you know you shouldn't. Don't beat yourself up about it. Just start again from this moment. Allow yourself some weakness, some treats! Sleep will help make everything better I am sure. Most of all, take care of you!

ollie1976 said...

Hugs Dani. Just take a deep breath. Things will get better.

Charlene said...

Have one of those days where anything goes! I called it a crave day - anything that had crossed my mind but had been denied - for an entire day, usually on the weekend. Rest and enjoy your Sunday, kick back, stitch, don't exercise, relax. Come Monday, back to the straight and narrow... and perhaps you'll see a change on weigh day! More often than not, I did.

Julie said...

My word of the day (decided upon by ME) was discontent! LOL I can relate. I do hope that things improve and you have a sweet make up! :-)

Anonymous said...

Hugs!
Not to be too technical, but when your body undergoes trauma (allergic reaction for example), your "fight or flight" response kicks in. IE Your body slows down it's metabolism to allow the energy to go to your muscles. You need to get back to "rest and digest"! My favorite way? A pedicure...Honestly I'm not girly, but a soak in a hot tub and then a ped makes me feel awesome! And then retail therapy!!! and dinner with a really positive friend! (we've all got one who makes us feel warm and fuzzy)!

You have come on such and amazing journey in the last year.

Remember, yesterday is History, tomorrow a mystery, but today is a gift and that's why it's called the present. Just leave yesterday where it belongs and start new again today. (AND YOU ARE ALLOWED TO HAVE SB DAY...we all have em!)

Stacey T in NS

Karoline said...

{{{{Dani}}}}

Michelle said...

Hugs to you, Dani! I'm sorry to hear about the hard time that you are having right now, but you are doing so awesome. I am sure that you'll get the allergic reactions managed and your weightloss will be exactly where you want it to be. You are an inspiration!

Cindy F. said...

Oh girl! You need bunches of BIG (((HUGS)))! You are definetly NOT a bitch, but it's ok to be bitchy. (yes, in my mind there is a difference;)
17 years!! and no celebration!!
Does he WANT to keep you another 17??? Hmmm....I'd be having some serious bitchy attitude too!
I'm sure he's a nice guy, but you are the other 1/2 of this relationship:) OK....I'm done;)

Carla said...

(((((hugs)))))

Karan said...

There's lots of sensible advice here already so I'm just going to send lots of positive thoughts & (((((((((hugs))))))))) your way Dani. Hang in there - things will get better!

tkdquintmom said...

No lecture here but I'll send an ear your way! I'm thinking about ya!

Bette said...

Everyone has alredy given you lots of good advice so I'll just say I'm wishing you all the best. And remember... this too shall pass.

Felicity said...

HUGS! This will all pass. Meanwhile, know that you have lots of online friends who are cheering you from the sidelines

stitcherw said...

BFG is looking beautiful. I'm sorry the lighting was so poor at the cottage you couldn't stitch, how frustrating. On top of that, you've got all the frustration with your weigh ins with WW. I'm sorry the scale is being so difficult right now. Sounds like you have a lot going on and you really don't need to have that too. Hope things settle down for you soon. {{hugs}}
Sue

Doris said...

I'm wishing you feel better soon. And remember:this shall pass.

Anne S said...

Sorry to hear you're so stressed and unhappy ... add my huge {{{HUG}}} into the pile of hugs you're getting and hopefully you'll be through the other side of this slump soon :)

Brigitte said...

So sorry that you are feeling so down. But brighter days will come. (((Dani)))

Maxine said...

Try not to get to downhearted about your weight you have done an absolutely fabulous job so far.I hope you are feeling better and I'm glad to hear you are being checked out by so many doctors to see what is causing the health problems and hope you have an answer soon. On the stitchy side of things you are doing a fabulous job on BFG :)Take care (((hugs)))